It was on the July 20th 2004 that I had an experience which involved seeing (what I now believe) was a "light being."

I had gone to bed and my wife was sleeping on my right side.  I fell asleep.  I was suddenly awoken by a very strong presence in my bedroom.  I looked and to my left appeared this " being" which was glowing a "gold yellow" colour.  I tried to wake up my wife, but I could not arouse her.  I shook her, but she still would not wake up.

By this time I was very scared, I could feel my adrenaline was rushing.  The light being figure started to walk towards me or drift towards me - I can't remember how it moved, but it did.  As it came towards me, I remembered what Mary Rodwell had said to me. To try to be be at peace with your fears and try to talk to them and ask them about why they are there.

As I did this " the being" came closer. I then blacked out andI didn't remember anything else until the next morning. I wasn't aware of any "time anomaly. But there could have been one.

Now it doesn't scare me so much because I know I can email Mary if I need to.  She helps with support and advice. I also write down any strange experiencies as they happen. They may not make sense now, but in the future I feel sure they will.

I would like other experiencers to contact me - my email address is:

My web address is :

I would also like to mention Mary's book AWAKENING which has been a God send to me. It has information and strategies to help you cope and to be at peace with these experiencies, as hard as it is, I know from my own experiences how hard it can be.

Michael Ruthurford
(UK) September 2004



  This particular experience occurred about nine years ago. I had just left my girlfriend’s around 8.30pm. I turned around a corner and saw a cigar shaped UFO, which was hovering above a group of trees in Parslows Park in Dagenham, Essex, UK.

I approached the trees in order to get a closer look at the UFO. Upon nearing the site, I suddenly became very disorientated. I then realized I was walking in the opposite direction of the trees, feeling somewhat dizzy and confused.

I eventually arrived at my house around 9.15pm. The trip from my girlfriend’s house to my house usually took about 15 minutes, but this night it had taken me 45 minutes.

When I arrived home, my mum was at the doorstep asking me where had I been. I was most puzzled by the time I had arrived home.


In the months that followed, I had some very bad nose bleeds and vivid nightmares about strange beings examining me. The beings were always in shadows and I could only see the shapes of their heads, but without features.

It was following these incidents that I started to seek help. I had previously heard about Mary Rodwell of ACERN in Australia, so I decided to contact her for some guidance.  

I am so thankful that I had contacted Mary, as she has been an enormous help to me in understanding my experiences. Thanks to Mary, I realize that I am not alone and that I am not crazy.

I have since learned to communicate on another level with these beings. I know that they can hear me when I communicate with them. I also meditate on a regular basis, which clears the soul and gives me greater understanding on what I am experiencing.

Once, when writing my journal on my experiences, I had a strong inclination to look up. When I did, I saw high up in the sky a dumbbell shaped UFO. I then had a clear thought, which I feel came from the UFO, saying that what I had been writing was true.

A friend of mine also saw this object over in central London, which is not that far from where I was. This gave me more proof of my contact experiences.

I am a member of CONCERN in the UK, which is a resource for help and support for experiencers. I also have a website – address:


I am much more at peace with my experiences now, because I know I can email Mary for advice and help anytime. I also found Mary Rodwell’s meditation Cds are a very good tool in connecting to my inner self and spirit guides. I thoroughly recommend her CDs, as they are very helpful to anyone having contact experience.

Her book Awakening is also very good. I feel it is the most helpful book for anyone with contact experience.

My life now is so different to what it was before I got help and guidance from Mary.

Michael Ruthurford
(UK) November 2004