@GAS

Oh man, why do I look so sleepy?!


This one is less smokey, but I look more sleepy...


These photos were taken by Matt Fong. I look fat Matt! I blame you for making me look bad. Hahaha... j/k Matt...

I stole these pics from Sir3n

Clubbing

A song to personify my disposition: Fortunes Faded (Red Hot Chili Peppers)

Yay, off to Club 5 this weekend. Why am I going? I have absolutely no idea. I've never really thought about full time ministry seriously before. And if I have, it would've been like "Nah"... I have no intention of going into full time ministry at this moment, or in the forseeable future either. With the exception of possibly fulfiling my dream by going to some far away mountain and preaching to all those needy snowboarders out there. That would be sick. So seriously, why am I going to Club 5? I still don't really know, I think I was pressured into going and I had nothing better to do so yeah, why not. It'd be a nice holiday, sorta.

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While on the topic of Clubbing. I went clubbing last Friday night. I haven't been for a while (since the Friday before that, but before that I hadn't gone for yonks). My friend Ali invited me to go and no one else I knew was going (cause all my other friends are old and outta that scene). It ended being Ali, her friend, her friend's bf and myself. Though numbers were short, it was still good fun. We went to Gas to start off with, the line was huge, but we managed to sneak in. The place was gonig off, sooooo packed. Then we decided to cruise on down to Home for a bit, haven't been there since 1st yr uni. After about an hour we decided it was too full of fobs and the music wasn't so good so we spent the rest of the night/morning at Gas. Stumbled home at 5:30am and was immediately unconcious despite the stoopid birds chirping outside.
Why am I blogging about my clubbing experience? Well, though the night/morning was good, the high-light would have to be the trip home. Ali's friends left early so I had to take her home. So we decided to bus to my place and I drove her home from there (she lives in the sticks, hahaha, close to Denise =P). This gave us ample time to chat, since I don't actually see her very often and we're not that close. Anyways, to cut the idle rambling, I found out that she used to go to church before (much to my surprise). She actually grew up in the church and at one stage even taught Sunday school, her brother is even the head of the youth group. But over the last few years I guess she just kinda lost the plot, and felt it wasn't real anymore and needed some time to figure things out for herself. I reckon if u grow up in the church then u gotta go through this sort of self-realisation thing sooner or later. I know I did, and thanx to my CSF, I made it through =), thanx guys! So, please pray for my friend Ali, that she is serious in her pursiut of the truth, and that God will speak to her personally.

Sorry Thursday

A song to personify my disposition: 人生海海 (MayDay)

'Rude am I in my speech,
And little bless'd with the soft phrase of peace'
Othello, Act 1, Scene 3

- Sorry to my folks for being so agro all the time
- Sorry Suz for being so rude to u all the time even tho u listen to my whining
- Sorry Dave for being indifferent towards u
- Sorry Marcus for wasting my opportunities when I was in Cali
- Sorry Tri, Huang, Roger for being a bad witness
- Sorry Bui 'cause I call fat and stoopid too much
- Sorry JMC for not being the moral support u needed
- Sorry Aka for being P'd at u when I had no right
- Sorry Leon for getting sick of hearing about LM
- Sorry Vic for being 'busy' when u needed me
- Sorry Serena for paying out so much and knocking Wu Liao
- Sorry Em for not talking to u enuf and then getting annoyed 'cause u don't talk back
- Sorry Yun about the phonecards and lollies
- Sorry Choogs about the earing
- Sorry J for being unpropitious and spineless
- Sorry YokeC, I should just listen next time to save u from having to say 'I told u so'
- Sorry Denise for not having this posted last night

I'm sure I missed some things... Maybe I should have a permenant thing on the side called the "Sorry Section". I'd probably be constantly filled.

*Grumble*

A song to personify my disposition: Friend (Emil Chow)

Woke up at 4:30am today... that in itself is enough to annoy anyone. Add to that the fact that the reason I had to wake up that early was to send one of my closest friends off at the airport, 'cause he's going to London indefinitely, and it makes for a pretty crappy start to the day.

Its a bit depressing how people tend to grow apart as time goes on. People's lives go in different directions which lead people to various parts of the world. I now have 3 of my closest friends all scattered around the world: California, London, Melbourne (ok, so Melbourne ain't so far, but still...). I tend to like stability in my circle of friends, I like that assurance that your mate is just down the road and you can just go visit or call whenever. And they'll always be around when you need to just hang out and bum.

It's understandable that people move on and need to follow their dreams/careers/whatever; I can deal with that. Travelling is extremely affordable and convenient nowadays so visiting and keeping in touch is not hard. What I am really concerned about is the Spiritual decline that is often associated with moving away. Most the friends who have left were Christians when they left. Few are still Christians now. It's very disheartening to catch up with old friends and find out that they no longer value their relationship with Jesus.

Makes me realise how fortunate I am to be here surrounded by my Christian brothers and sisters who constantly look out for me and keep me accountable. Even thoguh Church each Sunday can be extremely boring, and takes up pretty much the whole day, its beneficial 'cause the routine keeps me reminded of God's prescence in my life (dispite the constant distractions during the week). Once you get taken out of ur comfortable circle of Christian friends and the routine of Bible study/Youth group/Church then it is extremely easy to fall away.

I have had first hand experience of this while I was on exchange at UCSC in California. I went to Church a total of zero times. I think I knew 1 other 'Christian', whom I never talked to about Christian stuff. Without the encouragement of my usual Christian Support Framework (CSF - cool, think I'll coin that acronym) I ended up doing alotta shady things.

It is quite possible that I'm just prone to doing stoopid things regardless of where I am, but I do firmly believe in the importance of having a CSF. So, I guess I'll just have to make a special effort to keep in contact with my overseas buddies and keep on praying that God will keep guiding their lives.

A big thanks to all my CSF constituents!!! HAHAHA